Should know better

Good morning! Yes, I know it's noon and no I didn't woke up 5m ago! I've been up since 8 and working since 9! Finished my internship report and will be delivering it during lunch! Finally! Finished another step to my graduation! Only one more to go!

To bad that I can only take that last step on the 2nd semester of next year because that's when the class I'm missing is being taught! Why did I failled it this year, you may ask? Well, truthfully... I didn't go to class... I was excited with the internship, I don't like the teacher or the subject so, instead of getting it over and done with, No! I decided to ignore it and hope it would go away!... When did that ever work?! Hello! Should know better by now, right?!

Well, that's a problem for me... If I don't like something, really don't like it, almost hate it (not a big fan of this word - the reason why will come later), I tend to shove it under the rug... at least until it's so big that there's no other alternative but to deal with it...

In this particular case, I basically shot myself in the foot! How can I possibly get on with my professional plan when I still haven't finished my degree?! Smart, right?!

I could come up with an excuse and say that I don't know what I want or where I want to go professionally, but I do! I wanna take a master in marketing manager and a post-doc in tourism (wich comes first, I haven't decided) and I wanna start working in the tourism area... and none of that will happen without the degree!

Anyway, what is done is done! So, let's get on with it! I'm going to take an english course, a photography course (if you know of any that are good, cheap and in the Lisbon, please let me know) and see if there any small courses in tourism and/or marketing! And I'm going to keep a lookout for job offers in my desired area! Looks like a plan, doesn't it?! I'll let you know!

But there is a silver linning - I'm working and that helps! a lot!Which reminds me - I should get back to work!Later

Work alone

Oh boy! First day totally and completly alone at work! Boss on holidays and colleague moved on to a different job... Gonna miss her! Big boss here but in a meeting, so it's ok! quiet and with time to organize things and to steady myself! It will be a chalenge to get through the next week and a half but I'm gonna do it! No worries!

Why not?!

Less than a week ago, I had another birthday and my life is nowhere near where I wished or even where I wanted it to be... you see, to me there is a different between wishing and wanting. Wishing is dreaming wildly and wanting as a connection with reality, it's what you see as possible...

Anyway, in my wishes my job envolved traveling around the world, being free. In the wants, I had finished my university degree, was finishing my masters and was working on a marketing/tourism related job (with a litle bit of luck, it envolved traveling... :-) ) but like I said, I am nowhere near that...

Where am I? Still finishing my university degree and, for the past 6 months, working in a place that has nothing to do with tourism, althought the marketing is there - just a little but there!

So, I decided to start a blog, sort of a diary, trying to regain my course and achieving the wish/want goals of my life! and, also, to help me deal with several things that have/are happening in my life... anyway, without any promises of entertainment and in search for improvement and self-knowledge, hope you enjoy this voyage and help me through it!